1. How Old Would You Be If You Didn’t Know How Old You Were?
OK so I told y’all in the previous post that I was going to be doing these questions that are supposed to free your mind, and this is number one. I don’t intend to answer them all in order, but I figure starting with number one would be good exercise.
1. How Old Would You Be If You Didn’t Know How Old You Were?
My interpretation of this questions is not that I would wish I was a certain age, but moreso like if I was never told of birthdays growing up, and was suddenly explained the subject of them at my current age, how old would I feel I am.
It’s crazy because if you had have asked me this question last fall, you’d probably get something similar to the age I actually am (25). Right now, I would say I’m 33. Since the beginning of 2010 I’ve just dealt with a lot of things that have worn on me and given me cause for stress. Towards the beginning of the year I was arrested and spent the night in jail (don’t ask…LONG story). It seems that I rung in the year with relationship problems that have been back and forth the whole year.
School has been especially stressful. I get playful teasing from a lot of my friends about my age (most of them are 18-21) and on most days that doesn’t bother me, but on some days it does. It’s a reminder of past failures that I continue to punish myself for sometimes. It’s a reminder that I’ve fallen behind many others I was ahead of when I graduated high school.
Another thing that makes me feel older is the experiences I guess you could say I’ve been “blessed” with. I have an extensive amount of job experience, with multiple stops being management. I’ve done my fair share of traveling and meeting new people. I’ve been to three different schools, so I have a multitude of friends from all over the nation. I’ve met awesome people on and offline that have proven themselves to be a blessing in my life. Mentally, I feel I’m steps ahead of people my age.
I think if I could simply rid myself of some of the major stresses in my life, I’d feel something closer to my age. For right now…I’ll stick with 33.
